Entry # 003 - Al mio amore

Good morning everyone,

I apologize for the large delay on writing this next entry.

Things have been rather hectic as of late and I found it difficult to finish an entry, most attempts left me unsatisfied with the end result. I have five drafts sitting unused, waiting to be posted as we speak, none that I considered to be up to standard.

This will be a shorter than average entry because of that, I want to ensure quality content.

I do have a few specific things on my mind though, mostly pertaining to my ongoing relationship with my girlfriend, whom I am head over heels for and can't seem to talk about enough. As well as a few side issues related to that topic.

If you can't stand another entry primarily focused on romance and relationships, then you may wish to close the page now and come back for another entry. Fair warning.

And off we go!

Things have been going spectacular with my girl and I,

We have already reached a point of comfort that I have never had with any other woman, very early into our relationship. The connection we have with each other is truly amazing, I cannot describe it any other way (well, I could, but no matter what words I use it really never does it justice).

She is currently enrolled in college, with plans to continue her post secondary education through a separate course after completing her current ones . We have been trying to determine a way for her to transfer to a closer school later on down the road, but at the moment she will definitely be there until she completes her current studies.

I work in the south okanagan, where I reside, we are roughly a six and a half hour drive away from each other.

It can be tough, but we deal with it the best that we can, we are both very strong (and have known each other for such a long time prior to getting together) that it takes a lot of the stress of the long distance aspect off of us.

Don't get me wrong, we would prefer to be together as much as possible, but I'm fine with her doing what she needs to do in her life, even if that means we have to spend a lot of time apart at the moment.

The feeling of pride it gives me to know that she wants to do this with her life means a lot to me, and to us as a whole, it would be entirely selfish of me to expect any different. I support her completely in anything she wants to do with her life.

If it is important to her, it is important to me that she is able to do it, period.

It is a real tribute to how much I have changed over the years when I consider how situations like this have effected me in the past. I would have had a much different outlook on things five years ago than I do today.

I used to conjure up dire situations in my mind when involved in long distance relationships or even when separated for short times, setting myself up for failure ahead of time instead of trying to prevent problems through proper communication.

My green eyed monster has long taken a vacation, never to return, although at one time in my life I was a very jealous person. Growing up never seems to happen when you expect it to, but over time life has it's way of ensuring you either learn these lessons or spend a lot of time bitter and unhappy.

The choice is ours to make, at any time.

Another large part of why we are able to deal with the distance, is also because of the huge level of trust we already have established between us, I definitely cannot deny that, and I can honestly say that I have never felt so strongly for a woman in my entire life.

At times, it even causes me to question whether feelings I had in past relationships were as real as I thought, because everything with my current love interest is so much more defined and genuine.

I brag to people close to me about her whenever I have the chance, I'm always trying to think of new things I want to do for her, wondering about what her favorite "this or that" might be, whether she is hurting or happy, ways I can help lessen her own stress, paying close attention to every little word that rolls off of her tiny, perfect lips, etc..

Everything about her drives me absolutely nuts, in the best way possible, and because of that the length I find myself willing to go to seems limitless.

Valentine's Day is swiftly approaching, and thanks to my wonderful little brother (who is providing transportation for us, and isn't so little), we will have the opportunity to spend a week together soon due to her getting time off from school for spring break.

An opportunity that would not have been possible otherwise, as neither her or I currently own a vehicle of our own. A problem I intend to rectify for myself this year, as it has been sitting on the back burner for far, far too long.

I want to get into the details of what I have planned for our visit very badly, however, I know my lovely little lady is going to read this (hey babe! xoxo) so I have to leave those specifics out for the time being.

I'll just say that I have a few things planned, and it should definitely be a week she won't soon forget. The old fashioned romantic in me has never been more alive.

The last few months have been really tough for her, and I want her to have at least a few really good memories to take back home with her, for those rainy days when I cant be with her and things are rough. As a man, I consider it my responsibility to take it upon myself and do nice things like this for her, it's unfortunate that it happens to be such a rare quality among men these days.

I feel as though we have already made more progress in a short amount of time than I have in any past relationship I have ever been involved in. We talk so freely with each other, I usually feel a need to hide specific things about myself, but with her I don't have that problem, nor her with me.

I feel damn lucky these days, the situation could have turned out much different and we may very well have never had the chance to let each other know our true feelings after all this time.

All things happen for a reason, or so they say, I believe that now more than ever.


I hope you all have a wonderful Valentine's Day, take the time to do something unique and special for your honey, I guarantee you they will appreciate it more than you know.

The title for this entry is Italian, translated it means : To My Darling.